CRAZY DREAM.

Josh is strapped to a gurney and willed into the asylum, he tries to talk to someone, but they all have straight faces dressed in white, and minding their own business. He tries to look into their eyes but they are not looking at him, they are trying to get him into the ward and move on to the next patient. If he struggles and gives the nurses any trouble, he would be injected and placed in a special room. This is to ensure he does not harm to himself or others. Josh is aware of what might happen if he struggles or tries to tell them that they are making a big mistake, he is indeed sane and could not figure out what he was doing there. “Its okay shhh…., it’s alright Mr. Josh you’ll feel better in no time. ‘’ said a nurse.
As josh approaches the ward he eventually tries to reason with them, and tell them he was not crazy, that he did not know how he got to the institution. The nurses saw this as a rant and that he was indeed insane, they told him he will get better and when he became aggressive they gave him the other option. He was going to be strapped in a straight jacket and locked in a room for about two days he will not be allowed out, and no one will be allowed to come in. He was going to be in prison state. After being told this he became calm but still told them that he was normal and that he wanted to go home.
He was scheduled to see the doctor to be examined; Mr. Cheney, the doctor was tall with gray hair and bright eyes and a really calm but strong voice.
Mr. Cheney- Hi Mr.…… ahhh( he looks through his file)……. Josh hemming worth, am I right?
Josh- Yes (stuttering)…..yes sir
Mr. Cheney- my name is Edward Cheney but you can call me Ed.
Josh- josh nods, why am I here
Mr. Cheney- you tell me, why do you think you are here
Josh- I am not crazy, but obviously you think I am
Mr. Cheney – Nobody thinks you are crazy we are just here to examine you that’s all. (With a warm smile)
Mr. Cheney- how did you get here?
Josh- I don’t know
Mr. Cheney- where are you from?
Josh- with tears in his eyes, I don’t know. All I know is I am not crazy; you have got to believe me
Mr. Cheney (puts his hand on josh shoulder’s)- it’s alright, it’s okay these things happen but after medication and therapy u’ll be fine and you will remember everything.
Josh(hits Mr. Cheney’s hand away and becomes Aggressive)- I don’t need any fucking medication I am fine, I just don’t know who I am or where I am from, I just know my name and that’s it. You have been a doctor for like what……..20, 25 fucking years and you still can’t see I am not fucking insane.
Josh goes close and holds Mr. Cheney’s shirt you have got to fucking help me, please. The security and other doctors hear the commotion from the room and come to get josh. They pull him away from the doctor, josh kicking and screaming tells the doctor to tell them to let him go. The doctor just turns to him and says everything will be fine. Josh knows they are going to strap him with a stray jacket and put him in isolation. His heart is beating, he is screaming and the same time he is helpless as they are about five doctors holding him down about to put the jacket on him and inject him, then he was to be taken to the isolation room. He shouts and screams I am not crazy….he also repeats this words inside of himself in panic. I am not crazy, I am not crazy, I am not crazy. Then all of a sudden he feels a shake, covered in sweat and still shaky, he opens his eyes. He was not crazy, just dreaming and Eric, his best friend just woke him up.

DOUBT

It tells me that I am not good enough, not brave enough, not strong enough.
It tells me I will not do it.
It limits me puts fear in my heart and burns the core of my soul.
It cripples me and brings me down, forces me to the ground, I am so ashamed I cannot walk.
It chokes me, sucks the life out of me. I speak my mouth moves but I don’t hear a sound.
It ceases my breath and I cannot breathe. I try to break free, I try to survive but I am fighting for the being of me
It gets into my head, and controls my thought all I can see is fear. Dressed in lies and crowned in deceit, staring me in the face.
It blinds me; all I see is a black wall of impossibilities
I need to kill it, I need to stand up, and grab a stake and drive it into its heart
I need to feel its dry blood splash across my face.
I need to look into its dark eyes and see it tremble
I need to bestow unto it the same fear, it bestowed on me
I need to win
I need to bring down DOUBT; it will not bring me down.

THE UNSEEN.

Rachel Zoë was no doubt haunted. She was tormented, unable to sleep, unable to eat, unable to feel. There was something wrong, she would always dread going to bed at night, she could not close her eyes in an attempt to fall asleep. Rachel Zoë was haunted by a creature that was after her life, it would come only at night when she was about to fall asleep and strangle her till she was out of breath and choking. Her parents were aware of this and would always hear her scream every night and when they rush to her room, they often found her on the floor crying hysterically and trying to catch her breath. They did not understand what was happening to their child and they felt helpless because there was nothing they could do to save her.
They both decided that she come and sleep in their room where they could keep a close watch on her. Rachel Zoë now abandons her room to sleep with her parents and it works. She no longer felt any creature trying to strangle her, she also no longer felt that crippling fear anymore. She had gotten rid of the monster after all, she was now free.
Rachel Zoë decides she can now stay in her room, she no longer felt like any monster was after her life. She also did not feel anyone strangling her, she also did not feel out of breath, she was fine now. Her parents agree and let her stay in her room and that night, she felt it again a hand strangling her, she tries to pull the hand away but it’s so much stronger. This time her heart is beating and she now feels the hand squeezing the life out of her. She eventually got the hand away from her throat, and she was on the floor gasping the breath, her mum feels like there is something wrong and goes to check on her, she sees her on the floor with her hands on her throat.
Her parents suggest she stay with them, she was their only child and they were afraid for her life. Rachel Zoë decides to face her fears, to face this creature and to end this craziness once and for all. She decides she was going to stay in her own room and put a knife under her pillow and put an end to the creature.
When it gets dark and is time for her to go to bed, she does exactly what she planned. She put a knife under her pillow and waits for the creature; she waits in anticipation but eventually drifts off to sleep. Then the hand comes again and it reaches for her throat and begins strangling her, it strangles her so much she is out of breath and suffocating. Rachel Zoë gathers strength and fights back, fights for her life. She grabbed the knife under her pillow and put a deep cut in the hand that was threatening to take her life.
The hand lets go of her throat and there is blood everywhere, she rushes to put on the light and finds out she has cut her own hand. Her parents rushed to her room, they had heard the commotion from their room.
They find their daughters hand bleeding, she was shaking and could not even speak with tears in her eyes and seeing her own blood. She realizes she was the creature, she was the monster, she was the shadow that wanted to end her life. She was the unseen.

THE LIFE AND DEATH AND LIFE AGAIN OF JACK BROWNE.

It was a cold Tuesday night and Jack Browne had decided to end his miserable life, he was beat down, broken and depressed. Jack Browne felt overwhelming pressure to live up to his parents, society’s and also life’s expectation. Life had been unfair to him; nothing had really worked out for him. He often felt as though the walls were closing in on him, he felt he could not breathe, he felt he was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders. Jack also felt unloved and was not in love that probably made his decision to end his life easier. How was he supposed to be this successful, intelligent superhuman that his family hoped he would be when he was a failure. He was not doing well in school, he was not doing well in pretty much anything. Jack could not find just one thing he was passionate about, something he really wanted more than anything else, something he saw himself doing in the future

Jack thought of different ways to commit suicide. At first he thought of jumping off a bridge, with a heavy heart and feeling like his skinny legs weighed more than his whole body, he walked and finally approached the bridge. He looked down and with blurry vision that was caused by the tears that filled his eyes he saw the river below. Jack could not do jump, as much as he wanted to end his life he could somehow not bring himself to do it.

He tried hanging himself and dying by asphyxiation, but his hands were so shaky he could not even tie a knot in the rope to hang himself. He decided he was going to get a gun and eventually kill himself. He said to himself “one finger on the trigger and then boom”. He will be gone before he knew it. He did eventually get a gun and hid it, jack waited until everyone was gone and locked himself up in his room. His hands shaky, his palms sweaty, he loaded the gun. He put just one bullet in the gun just enough to put him out of his misery.

He pointed the gun to his head, with a finger on the trigger, and a second a way from death he had already made up his mind. This was the day he was going to leave this world, this was the day his pain, sorrow and confusion will end, and this was the day that no one will expect anything from him. He was going to be dead. He mustered enough courage with his heart beating, and his mouth drying up he pulled the trigger and then he heard a loud shot. Jack went blank for a second that felt like an hour, he could not hear or even feel anything. In this state he saw his life flash before his eyes, if he killed himself he would have denied himself that chance to become a better person; To turn his life around, to figure out what he really wanted out of life, to achieve his goals, to make his parents proud and also to be proud of himself. Then finally he realized that he was still holding the gun, he had not pulled the trigger and he was still standing and still breathing.

It then occurred to Jack that he had killed himself he had beating himself down, he had allowed life to beat him down. He had allowed himself to believe that he could not be any better than who he was. He has allowed himself to believe that death was a way out.

This was the turning point in jack browne’s life. He decided to be a better person, he decided to get the very best out of this unfair and cruel world. He decided to live.